I was walking to a meat shop around 6 to buy some meat for sona(my pet)... Winters, it's getting darker earlier than usual... I stopped having meat.. but haven't stopped visiting the meat shop for the rest of my family... every time i visit it, my decision of becoming a vegetarian is more strongly justified... and every time i visit, it seems more sensible... more meaningful...
That fellow said.. come back in half an hour... I'll put it ready for you...
I nodded and thought of going back home... But then that'll be third time I'll go home without taking it.. I kept forgetting it all morning... I thought I'll go somewhere else... Not just that i want to go home with meat... But, I just didn't want to go home..
I started walking... cross roads... n i obviously took the less trodden path.. that was just another moment when i remembered Robert Frost and his poem "Stopping by woods on a snowy evening" in which he encourages one to take the less trodden path.. This step of mine is no near to that poem or to its spirit... This is no great adventure, taking that path.. But now, i'm used to taking unusual decisions and unusual ways...
Thinking about my statement of purpose which i thought I'll finish today and didn't even touch it.. and thinking about the road, wet and dirty because of rain... Haaa.. Rain :-) i guess this is what has made me active and is making me write all this...
All day long it was a good feeling of clouds above and chilling winds... When i woke up at 11, i thought it was still 7.. i was about to sleep again thinking it's very early... and saw my mom doing pooja.. "Tea", I mumbled.. She stopped pooja and started scolding me for soo shamelessly asking for tea without brushing... she's not yet used to it... :-):-) We friends did this all the time we were out of station and during combined studies :-)
I was carried away by these thoughts and could afford to have a little smile... but then i was back again on to the road... I could see few girls.. But couldn't find anything which i wanted... They were infront of my eyes...But, behind my eyes, in my mind, I could see only one girl. These were all just normal and boring....
A faint doubt "Why am I here(on this world)?" disturbed my thoughts like the intermittent wind.. This thought or doubt arises pretty often and that's when i become slightly philosophical like now... and people become philosophical when they're alone.. And that's my exact position.
All this while i was walking through this unknown road ( I knew the road I entered.. but surely don't know this place where I'm right now) I didn't notice where i was going... Strangely the road was straight all this while i guess and I just followed it... It seemed like I walked for a long time now, i thought I would return back.. But again I wanted to see where the road ends... Guessing it has been straight all along, I wanted to see where the road ended... I resumed walking..
The surrounding seemed familiar... Just like any other calm colony.. I felt there could be no youngsters around.. Then I came across a hostel for intermediate students.. I could relate to myself 5 years ago... And another thought that "there could be some guys in here who are not really interested in cracking IIT JEE, but here because their parents and their their relatives want him to"!!!!!
The boom in Education industry in Hyderabad came as a boon to Real Estate and to ambitious parents... This boom later on brought many IT companies to Hyderabad. But it has been unfortunate for most of the 8th, 9th and 10th standard students... And now a days even to 5th, 6th and 7th... They spend time attending "EXTRA" classes. Is there a need that a 14yr old should get up early in the morning 5!! or else miss his teenage in the form of evening classes??
This thwarting still in my head, I remembered the longest walk I ever had to my Home.. It was right from Ravindra Bharathi to my home!!!!! That was when we went to watch one of my friend's program. By the time we reached, they were waiting to bid adieu.. The program was over long back and they were waiting at the gate for us. So, they left.. and I was left too.. Alone.
Searched my pockets, i had money :-) yeah... Most of the times I'm forgetting to carry money!! thought I'll take a bus home.. Waited nearly an half hour! No buses... :-)
"it should be surprising if we got one... ain't it??" that's what people say.. But never was it that way for me.. First time now.
"Auto??? Hmmm... Nooo... Let me walk till the next bus stop.." was going in my mind.
It will however be the same bus i'll take, whether this stop or the next! But just like today, that day also I wanted to walk..
Started... Reached the next stop pretty quickly as compared to the time, I'm gonna spend next. Then it occured "Why don't I walk home! From here!!!!!"
Was sitting in the stop, now got up and started walking again... The first few metres were well and fine... I was walking briskly. Then it started "How long??"
After some more time "How much more??" I was searching for an auto.. when i found one and he approached me, I was "I'm already half way.. let's finish it off, walking itself".
Then every moment from then seemed to stretch to infinity.. some seemed like they're gonna stay forever.. Could find nothing more.. All this while, i was talking to myself, no one to accompany!
"Huhh... you talked a lot to yourSELF.. enough now.. take an auto"
"Can't you see?? you're almost home... Why an auto noww?? You should've done that earlier"
"stop it noww.... " that was the third ME
ALL of us however agreed with the 2nd...
The rest was quick again... But, Ravindra Bharathi to home is quite a long distance!!
This way, i was doing unusual things all this while... unpredictable with myself..
UNPREDICTABLE it was, All the time. This journey!
It has always been a path of chances rather than a path of choices..
I guess that the other one, the path of choices would have been boring and uninteresting...!
I didn't know this post will become this long 'a tiring story' when I started it!!
Not predicted!
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